September 20, 2009

  • Chewlee And The Beast

    I can't believe I am writing this AGAIN.  I went to save it and it just disappeared.  I had put down the adventures of Chewlee here today and her intense *conversation* with the Beast about the movie *Tremors* that we had watched.  She had picked it out, along with the movie *Independence Day*.  When I asked her why she wanted those movies, she pointed at the front of Tremors and said, *Monsters!* 

    The Beast looked like a deer caught in headlights when she went out to the dining area and sat down opposite him.  I knew from her gestures that she was trying to tell him about the monsters coming out of the ground and had to laugh.  He had no clue until I told him.  He never learned to understand *kidlet*.  When he finally got up from the table and sat in his recliner, she crawled up into his lap and sat there contentedly for all of five minutes before coming back into my room to watch the second of the four Tremors movies.  I tried to get Independence Day to load but the crack in it that I discovered a month or so ago has finally prevented it from starting at all.  I guess I really need to get on Amazon.com and order a replacement for it and my *The Stand*.

    I spoke to Buttmunch today and actually made her laugh.  I was glad because I know she is upset over the Brutus/Sheepie situation.  He's not letting Sheepie call her mother (Buttmunch) at all because he is trying to force Buttmunch into sending him money.  It just pisses him off that she won't do it.  She bought a student Visa card complete with Sheepie's name on it that she can reload.  The purpose of it is to give Sheepie some freedom from always going to her father for money.  It won't allow Brutus access to the money since he can't get cash from it and that's what he really wants so he can buy his drug of choice at the moment.  It used to be just marijuana but I don't know if that is still true or if he has moved on to other things.  His current wife doesn't even live with him but does come over to get drunk and do drugs with him from what I understand.  This is mostly from things that Sheepie has disclosed from time-to-time, although she tries not to say anything bad about anyone, even her father when he makes her cry.

    One of the things we discoveed about Sheepie is she is more her mother's child than her father's.  Those early years with her mother before her father kidnapped her were obviously the crutial ones.  I had always loved her independent thinking.  It showed up in the way she could always figure out when her father wasn't being honest with her and she would tell him what SHE thought.  Then she would tell him, *I'm done talking now* and hand me the phone. 

    We really worried that he might have physically abused her and even worse so it was a real relief to find out he hadn't for whatever reason.  He had, I am sure, subjected her to some mental abuse because that is just his nature.  We actually thought he might have some real love for her but I'm not sure of that now.  I think it really was more that he knew it would cut my daughter deeply to be separated from her child.    I'm certain that every time he looked at her, it was a reminder of what he was doing to hurt her.  It still pisses me off that we lost all those years with her and we are virtual strangers to her now.  Her relationship to her mother is or was going great until this last episode.  They spoke every night for at least an hour about anything and everything.  Some of the restraints between mothers and daughters is absent and they can literally talk about anything like best friends.  I think that is wonderful and amazing.  Sheepie really DID miss having a loving mother in her life.  More's the pity about what is going on now.

    Well, I am going to get this set for posting later tonight.  I hope you have a peaceful and pleasant Sunday.  Love you all.  Thanks for stopping by.