August 29, 2011
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Have You Ever……?
TALES FROM THE BRAT FARM
Have you ever been kept awake during the night by thoughts that keep streaming through your mind and you can’t stop them? I read that exercise will help stop that. The saying is: to tire the mind, exercise the body. To tire the body, exercise the mind (read, for example). I’ve tried the exercise thing but it doesn’t work for me. Guess I just don’t use the right exercises. You would think lifting a filled glass or mug countless times would work. Especially if it’s got some heavy alcohol in it. **Grin** Just kidding.
Have you ever been awoken by the feeling that you were not alone. And I don’t mean the snoring body next to you. It’s the kind of hair on the back of your neck standing up feeling that someone (or something) is in your room with you, uninvited. I was awakened one night by someone touching my toes (the injured ones). At first I thought I was nuts and it was just nerves in the toes themselves but then it felt like someone (or something) PINCHED my toes. Scared the hell out of me and I told IT to *cut it out because they were sore*. It stopped but sleep for me was out until the sun started coming up.
I know this area was once part of a farm and it makes me wonder if we might have some spirits tied to the land that aren’t ready to leave it. It would explain a few odd things that have happened around here. I haven’t mentioned it to the Beast because he is too practical minded to consider such things regardless if it happened to hm. He would ignore it or find some other reason for whatever happened that was more acceptable. Oh well.
Have you ever been up very late at night and started thinking deep thoughts? I mean about such things as aliens, God, angels, the Devil, religion, politics, finance, lord knows there are enough things that we sometimes DON’T take the time to think about. I’ve often sat and thought about things like death, afterlife, rebirth, past lives….true or not true? How could we possibly know? Aliens….did they help build the pyramids and some of the massive structures found in South America? Many of them we couldn’t duplicate today with all our technology. It’s definitely food for deep thoughts.
Other times I have thought about my kids and their lives. My missing and lost daughter that we only know is alive because Buttmunch has friends that see her on occasion or else she is listed on the sheriff’s page as being in jail. That’s depressing and makes me so sad because of all the things she is missing and will never know. She chose drugs over family and friends. Even after becoming clean of drugs when she is in jail, she can’t wait to get them again as soon as she is released. It’s a tragedy and we had to practice tough love with her because she was robbing us blind. I did so much more for her than my other kids because I thought she could be saved. It was hard for me to admit defeat. More difficult than anyone can imagine because she was my oldest, the golden child that could have done so many wonderful things if she had chosen differently. When I get into that state, it’s very difficult for me to shake it off. But I am learning.
I think I am going to stop here. There are lots of things I am sure we all do at times that also are dumb or stupid. Wow! Have *I* done those. That will be fodder for another post. Love you all.
