I hate to say it but the Beast is up to his regular shit…AGAIN. I told you about his constantly coming up with (and starting) all kinds of projects. I suppose I should be grateful that he does, at least, complete most of them so I don’t have that headache, but he is making me crazy with this latest list.
It all started with his deciding we should put down new flooring in the kitchen. Well, that expanded into the living room area (and he tried to talk me into the bedrooms but I had a hissy fit and put my foot down HARD). Especially after he decided that HE could do this and we didn’t need to hire the place we bought the flooring from to install it. (I know…no fool like an old fool and, trust me, I brought that up to him but he thinks he has all the answers to the problems I could foresee and point out). So, he then decides that before we can even THINK about putting down the flooring, we should probably get the painting done that he feels we should do. In truth, the quality of the paint on the walls has left a lot to be desired and I agreed with that premise.
So, off he goes to get the paint and he started on that. If he hadn’t had those strokes 8 years ago (yes, it’s now 8 years he’s survived two brainstem strokes, folks!), he probably could have done the ceiling in the living room and kitchen in one day. Instead, it took him three days. Plus, he had to lay off it for a day and a half after TWO days because the climbing up and down the ladder (even with three naps a day) just killed his back and his left leg. The left leg is the one that was paralyzed and hasn’t ever fully recovered but does very well most of the time. Then he started on the kitchen and the one wall that is the *feature* wall for the table (dining) area. That was started four days ago and still isn’t done even though he’s managed to put two coats in one day on the areas he HAS completed. Worse, some of the areas look like they will need a third coat and he still hasn’t gotten to the wall area behind the stove and fridge or that wall under the cabinets. *sigh*
Now, mind you there is still the flooring that will need to be put down and before that the rug will have to be taken up, some plywood that will have to go down to even out the kitchen and living room areas (bet you didn’t even think of that, did you?) and I am wondering why he is measuring out what will end up being a little bit bigger table area. Well, it’s because he is thinking we will need to get a new table and he wants to see how big the table could/should be. **banging head on keyboard over this**
Today we got a flyer from Badcock Furniture Store and guess what he is looking at? You got it, all the dining room tables (complete with measurements) that they have *on sale* and he’s showing me what he likes. Then, when I walked away without comment, he comes into my computer room to have me look up unfinished furniture stores in our area (which I did and found a megamart one in Huntsville) but the whole time I am thinking it *another project*. This man is gonna make me nuts with all this shit.
So, I finally walk out and tell him, *Beast, all this looking at stuff is kind of putting the cart before the horse. I think you should wait before even looking until after all the work is done and the floor is down*. He looks at me and says, *I don’t agree*. I KNOW my face had to look incredulous and I said to him, *I refuse to have a new set or another project cluttering up this house when there is NO REASON FOR IT*.
He didn’t say a word but you and I know that it doesn’t mean anything. He is extremely self-centered and self-indulgent so what HE wants is what is going to happen, with or without my consent. Wait and see. I swear that this man is absolutely certain that he is going to die the minute he runs out of projects or things to do. If not, I don’t understand why he is so damn DRIVEN to make himself so tired and me so crazy. He STILL hasn’t finished pressure cleaning the outside of the house yet so there’s another unfinished project hanging in the air. I shudder to think what it’s going to be like in the next few weeks and, worse, what *I* will be put through because there is no way in hell that he will be able to do a lot of this stuff on his own. Even cutting the plywood for the floors he won’t be able to do on his own. A lot of men could but not him since he only sees HIS way of doing things and that involves his table saw (although we saw how they did it on other homes and one man managed it by suspending it between two 4×4′s and using a circular saw. But does the Beast see this as reasonable? No. No project he EVER starts does NOT involve ME in some way, shape or form. Like *I* have nothing to do.
I have told him more than once that he needs to find a hobby or projects that don’t require me to stop what I am doing to help him. I asked him when was the last time he remembers ME doing that to HIM? Never. And I mean that. I have never started a project nor do I have a hobby that has required me to interrupt him from something to give me a hand *just for a second*…which is a laugh.
Can you tell I am pissed? Yes, I am if you are uncertain. It means I have to get ready for a fight because otherwise I am going to have some damn big fucking table sitting in my living room and that we will have to move all over the place because HE can’t WAIT for anything HE wants. This is one fight I am going to be very vocal over which I haven’t been in a long time. It’s just that we have Chewlee here and a huge freaking dog and the last thing I need is the mess and his fussing over (because he will be more worried about the furniture than the people) shit that is unnecessary.
((Doing some deep breathing and chanting a mantra….give me a few minutes))……
Okay. I am done for now. I will keep you up to date on this in the future. Gonna close this and just relax for a bit before I get ready for bed. Love you all and hope you have a great weekend. We are due for more rain tomorrow and are under a possible flood watch. We won’t have one HERE because we are uphill from the lake and it’s a bit of a ways down from us (probably 100 feet difference in elevation) so little worry there. Hope you have better weather. Stay warm if expecting cold, dry if rain and cool if in heat…..LOL.